And on to the page is how most of my writing is done pretty interesting right?
See my philosphy on life is a little different. Is a Mormon with a little jack a good thing? Or are they just not obedient enough? You see I wasn't totally raised in a strong active family as a kid and its given me different perspectives and I'm thank-ful for that. See to me its whats important. Be a good person, service, love, drop the judgement, produce, improve, work hard. Ect. ect. What I'm trying to say is that I watch an R Rated movie every once in a while. Now I try to choose ones with good stories, because R Rated movies can have some really good stories, that just connect to humans, to life, LDS or not. Books are the same way.
Quick story about my sweet mother. One night she was about to leave for book club and she was a little worried. The book she had chosen had a small "f" word tangent because the boy in the book is autistic. She was worried because she had a feeling not all of the ladies would read the book, so we kind of talked about this sort of thing. She kind of summed it up in a good way on how I feel about these sort of things and she said something along the lines of "you know its just life." The book had to be sad, being an autistic child, and I wonder if we close ourselves off to inspirational or things we can connect to because of swears or content. I loved "the Catcher in the Rye" I connected with the kid as a teenager and agreed with lots of things he said, including that its hard to find peace cause people will write "f" you everywhere you go.
As I go on I'm not sure if this post makes any sense what so ever at all. I just kind of had to blurt things out and get them out there. Cause see here is where my problem gets down to really good faithful memers. I feel sometimes that people are so focussed on things like swearing, movies, church, that they become blind to judgement, love and forgiveness. I've seen wards breed competion within themselves. Now I feel sort of bad because in a way I'm just returning reverse judgement, but I just feel strongly about it. Now I'm not saying thats what always happens but I feel I see it a lot. I mean is it really a big deal if I play a sport with my family on a Sunday, isn't that family time? Bonding, strengthening? Does that really feel like breaking the Sabbath?
I don't know its complicated, life is complicated, and I hope I don't offend anyone or hurt any feelings. In the church way they are right, the Prophet has said to stray away from R Rated movies so that really puts me in the wrong. Its hard and as I said it is complicated, and maybe its not maybe for the simple truth I am simply. Wrong.
Either way I am me and that is who I am, nobody is meer then me, right? Thanks Dr. Seuss. I will change and who knows what the future me holds, but hopefully I continue to change from good and improve in my life whether I read bad books or not. As I said I hope no one is offended, hurt, or worried about me for that matter.
If so I'm sorry but don't worry too much about things, and don't be too hard on yourselves, you can always improve and constant improvement is the best you can do. Enjoy life really, its not as hard as people make it seem to be. Maybe I'm just ignorant.
Really though thanks to my parents for the differnet perspectives on life that I have I appreciate that. Love you guys.
it is completely up to you to decide what you believe, and to what extent you follow it, ya know? But yeah, I think in a sense, that does happen. People do forget...they got caught up in the "churchy" aspect of it all. They DO forget that it's more important to love and forgive and such, and I think especially in Utah. It's almost taken for granted. I just always remember the church is always true...the people aren't always true.
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