The funny thing is I just decided that I am in a totally weird mood, if you have ever seen me acting crazy, then you know what I am talking about, but I really want to talk about deeper stuff, they don't always mix and I may even make fun of myself while I am doing this, so far this blog is getting no where. Chance. Whats up with it? Why is it so darn hard for me to take chances? You want to know how bad it is? I couldn't hold a girl's hand when I was told she wanted me to, what the heck? How hard can it be? Yeah and if that sounds like some stupid Jr High School Story, it is, so you were right, but don't win a prize. Honestly I want to stop being so darn worried about what others think about me, and I think I am beginning that change. Let me tell you a story I was in a little, well big city called Denver, wonderful town, er... I mean city. I was at a final party dance thing, and was not wanting to go out on the dance floor, why you might ask, well it is simple I didn't have in super close friends there that I felt like dancing with. I had learned so much that week that I had a crazy idea! Why not just go dance out there by myself? Woah now that is crazy people will be lookin' at you all funky and will have that look like "who the heck is this guy?" or you may even get the occasional "poor fella, he is all alone." (It wasn't that bad though, I made friends there)
It really was a absolutely insane idea though! Somehow I did it, I just didn't care I knew I could have fun out there dancing, and who cares what they think anyway? Why should I sit around being lonely, being homesick, and just wanting the night to end? Crazy enough I went out there and danced with some kids I kind of knew, and well I felt like a secluded hyena trying to get pack into the pack, (I am pretty sure one of the girl's in that group hated my guts, I don't even know why! I think I am a lovable guy, must be my annoying side...) Really story is, it really felt like I was dancing by myself. A little awkward? Yes but I was actually enjoying myself, and what happened next a group of hippos let me join them (the people didn't actually look like hippos) I met some kids from Colorado and had a great time.
My boss taught me an amazing lesson a few days ago at work, something that with the knowledge I have and believe in I should of been able to put together. The lesson, taking a chance is a win, win situation. First win: it works out and you succeed, things are dandy; Second win: you fail, it doesn't work, what do you win? You learn what doesn't work. And your usually not dead, you should still feel dandy. I hope that story and lesson was somewhat enjoyable...
Robbie Robot has never seen past episode 1, you must hate it, cause I'm not writing it, that's not true, well it maybe true because I really don't know if you like him but I have been amazingly busy.
You may want to take a break right here, go take a nap, get a drink, popcorn, go for a run, I don't know just take it easy for a second before I take up the rest of your life.
I am an awkward funny...? I guess I didn't learn that till today. You will never guess who I ran into at Chang's Chopsticks today during my lunch break, wow you guessed right? Yeah it was Carli. As we sat there with a couple of others buddies laughing, she brought up some times that were pretty darn funny. She in fact introduced me at this point of the story as one of the most awkward funny kids that you may meet. (I may be giving myself too much credit now.) I guess its awkward "Sofa King?" pretty good story. You know Carli I realized we missed out on some good stories today at lunch, like how I even started blogging, the whole apples to apples and Ginko Trees...
Honestly Morgan probably knows way too much about my awkwardness's. I don't even want to go into stories... There is of course hot dog chucking, taking off in tents exploring the galaxy and well I have said plenty of awkward things that I can't think about, so if you would like to post any of them, feel free.
Any Miriam we haven't spent a ton of time together, but man I know I have done some very awkward singing.
What did I learn just know, even more than what I learned at lunch, I am an awkward kid and I LOVE it, life would be dull without the awkward.
Yes, those three short letters I just wrote to three people are my blogging fan base so far, that I know about anyway... Keep it small and hopefully they all like you I guess, I also learned that my entire fan base is girls, interesting... Other note to self: Don't call people who read your blog your fan base, they may not even like it...
Holy Cow Justin, go to bed! Last point and I may get a little melodramatic here. Perspective, I don't think this will be the only time I blog about perspective in fact maybe I blog perspective stories all the time. I love perspective, why? Because I believe it is one of the biggest keys to happiness there is. Your perspective changes everything and I will blog about it in fuller detail some day. Another thing that happened at work was a little story on perspective this is what was asked us. "Do you guys think your rich?" Now if I may be so rude I bet you guys might be saying things like "oh well I am well off" "yeah I do pretty well" maybe you picture yourself rich, I don't know... Know think of a third world country, walking for water, infected food, a tin shelter that you call a home that may or may not have a roof. Melodramatic? a little, gets the point of perspective across though. It also points out comparing. Why does it seem like when we are asked those questions we compare ourselves to the people on the hill? When were asked if we are good artists, we compare ourselves to the best artists, build yourself up that's all I have to say, and I don't mean get cocky and prideful but don't tear yourself down.
"Start out by saying 'today is going to be an amazing day' and I bet you'll have a pretty good day" I am actually thinking about posting that as a blog, or a facebook everyday or maybe not everyday, and then at night finding something that was just good that day. Good idea?
I am terribly sorry, I hope you slightly enjoyed this, and you know, enjoy yourselves, I decided not to edit this, and let my rough edges show, mostly my word choich, horrible grammar, and bad typing. Also the rough edges of my rough and weird comments that I am not even sure made any sense, I hope they did... good night.
