This One's for You Socks

So what can I say? I just have a lot on my mind and just a lot going on. Most importantly I'm finding myself to be pretty happy... Apparently I don't show it? Or maybe I'm just kidding teased about it? Would you like to let me know Morgan? Either way, what do I care? I know if I'm happy or not, I know how I feel on the inside so lets not worry about. Sure I keep screwing up but I know God loves me and I know I can figure it all out and it will just work. I know happiness comes and I'm doing pretty good. New thing I've realized. I'm not a huge fan of others not being happy with themselves. Its weird I don't know why, I just want to help, maybe help them find themselves and other things I don't its hard to explain my whole thought on this.

Other news: Goodbye June. Have fun working, mowing and Savior of the World. It should be an awesome experience but I'm not going to say I wasn't bummed that I wasn't just going to chill, please bless me anyways Lord.

Finished the Book of Mormon, kind of weird it just didn't feel like a book that should end, just felt like it should keep going. It was a pretty good book though, don't have a complete testimony on it though, need to do more of that pondering and praying, I will have to read it again.

Last and certainly not least, our cat Socks passed away Saturday. She got really sick really soon and kind of died all of a sudden. Life is just such a interesting idea, bodies that work and keep going just decide to stop, and of course it will always bring a topic of what happens after death. I pretty much have a complete testimony of where I will be going. I hope old pets will be there, unsure if it would be heaven without them. Its amazing how we can build relationships with animals like that. I always thought the greatest fear would be death. I think I have a new idea, I think not totally sure, but I think the greatest fear is to be alone. Its kind of a terrifying, desperate, sad thought. I think being alone would, well... suck. Even Socks, she was pretty independent I mean we saw her quite a bit but she wasn't a huge fan of people. When she first started dying though she went right up to my mom, and anytime my mom would leave her by herself she would yowl like crazy. That's just a thought though, I'm glad I'll never be alone in this universe.

In the words of my own father. "See ya, you pain in the butt."

Hope to see you on the other side Socks, Rest in Peace.